Feelings.

(Just a lil' throwback random ramblin')

Feelings.

This post is about feelings.


Yes, feelings. We all feel sometimes, whether it is joy, extreme sadness, anger, or even indifference. It is human nature to feel. Of course, no one wants to be taken advantage of, as many people have no qualms about playing with these very emotions that makes us all human. As you may have realized by now, I am referring to matters of the heart. Some of us choose to take their chances in hopes of finding someone who will handle their heart with care. People may brush our actions off as foolishness because this does indeed leave ourselves susceptible to hurt and pain.

On the other side of the spectrum however, there are those who choose to built a wall, a shield, or fort if you will. Used as a faux means of protection. A preventive measure in not getting "caught up" as our generation likes to say. The vast majority of these people like to "do them" so to speak. A world where sexuality is the ideal substitute for everything and emotions are null and void so "being hurt" is not a possiblility.

Hmmm....

I find this interesting because in the end, living this way would cause nothing but hurt, because you are living a lie. Yeah, I said it...living a lie. Yes, you may get all the nice, casual, no strings attached sex that a man or women could possibly yearn for and for now you may be content with it... but you know what...that shit will eventually get old and unfulfilling. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not even five years from now...but eventually, it will. And by that time, when that nice fort you built comes under attack, no one will be there to save you from that emotional jail...because in order to save you, one would have to know you. To truly know you not only in the biblical sense, but to know your hurt, your sadness, your past, your desires...the list goes on and on. As long as you submerge yourself in this parallel universe, it is impossible for someone to give you the orgasm of the mind as well as the body.

Like I stated before, some people take their chances with matters of the heart and that may be brushed off as foolishness...and you know what? I am one of those people. Call me stupid if you will, but at least I can go to sleep at night knowing that when someone is ready to love me, they don't have to struggle with breaking that wall. Not everyone is strong enough to break that wall (even the person who built it), and even if they were...they might not think its worth it to spend that energy.

Think twice before thinking you can't let your feelings be known, because not everyone is out there to hurt you. They just might be more interested in healing you.